May 21, 2007

  • random stuff.

    i don't really believe in astrology, although i do check out my horoscope occasionally for kicks... and in this month's VF, this is what they had to say:

    Do
    let us know when you finally figure out how to balance your need for a
    deep, warm relationship with the reality that you've got more trust
    issues than all the Corleones and Sopranos combined. What's making
    everything so complex? Just this aspect of the Saturn-Neptune dilemma:
    as hard as you try to maintain boundaries and stay steady, sober, and
    on course, you feel an equally powerful urge to break your own rules
    and escape from the fact that you are boring yourself to death.

    trust issues? maybe. boring myself to death? this is actually quite true. as much as i sometimes say i love the entertainment, the shenanigans... it's actually just been the same old, same old for quite a while now. and that gets boring. and tiring. i catch up with my sister or friends and they ask what's new and my response is that it's the same old, same old. they ask whether i have any new and funny dating stories- they love the stories- and of course i always have interesting adventures to re-tell. but i'm starting to realize that the names and faces are beginning to become quite interchangeable as it is the same old, same old. "what happened to so and so?"     someone might ask... and my answer to that question is always pretty much the same too- i got bored or annoyed of them, or i did something to piss them off enough that we just don't speak anymore, or there's just nothing compelling there. the same old, same old. so perhaps it is time for me to change it up and break my own rules then. perhaps.

    miscellaneous catchup stuff:

    -i'm getting excited to go to scottsdale for memorial day weekend.

    -i have been getting pumped about getting out and running lately. i'm itching to get out of the office and go for  a run right now actually. maybe it's the weather?

    -seeing other people throw up because they drank too much, now that's a good time, in a ha-ha-funny/ha-ha-pitiful kind of way. we've all been there though. good times.

    -it's scary to get to know someone and realizing that they are a lot like someone from your past. should you stop yourself at the point you make that realization? or should you take the lessons learned from that past experience and apply it to the present? hmmm. that's something to think about, or not. do i see a train wreck coming? maybe. maybe.

    -i absolutely cannot get motivated to do any work today. i'm not even pretending to work although i know i have stuff i should be working on.

    -i'm starting to realize that i frequent my neighborhood CVS way too often. i'm going to start chronicling everything i buy there. saturday it was: claritan, pepcid AC and toothpaste. i have a list going right now for things i need to buy that i forgot to get over the weekend.