August 6, 2007

  • ridiculously content. or in other words, just darn happy. the last time i felt this exact same way... oh, that's a little frightening. i mean, it is strangely reminiscent... but could it really be? i'm just a tad scared to even go there. so maybe i won't. not yet. the thought did cross my mind however. i refuse to to define it just yet though. so how about i'll continue to just go with the flow and then wait and see? that sounds like a plan.

    what i do know to be true however is this - if we're talking about it being that same thing, at least (i think?) i'm smarter this time around. i mean, i was so ballsy then, or maybe reckless is a better word. i was completely in the moment, at every moment. i went in full force without a single fear, without hesitation. i just went with it, and i thought very little of any of the possible adverse outcomes. it didn't matter to me. the experience in and of itself was enough. and while i still feel the same way, kind of, this time perhaps i am better positioned with more experience on my side. i'm smarter, i'm wiser so i'm a tiny bit more cautious... but not too cautious so as to have my guard up beyond penetration. i'm cautious enough though. so i think i'll be okay. i will survive regardless of the outcome. i can't deny it though - this feeling, it's pretty darn nice... so i guess whatever happens, will happen. and it will be for the best.

    anyways, it was just one of those weekends where for the majority of it, i was exactly where i wanted to be. no questions, no doubts, no angst. pure contentment. the places really don't matter, but here's a quick recap: friday evening was pretty neat - legg mason tournament - quarterfinal round match, andy roddick vs. lee hyung taik... darn cool to be in such an intimate setting watching really good players going at it with one another. later in the evening, zaytinya and poste... and at the latter location, we had an amy winehouse siting which was pretty cool. saturday, it was sheer laziness... slept in, drank good coffee, ate korean food, sat around like a lazy bum, leopold's kafe in cady's ally in georgetown (leopold's was pretty darn good but the service was sooo horrible), bourne ultimatum. and today, more laziness, more korean food, more coffee... i almost forgot how good coffee can taste. i can and will drink 7-11 coffee, instant folger's coffee... but if we're going to talk about good coffee, it's gotta be murky coffee in cap hill and clarendon. the vibe and roasts remind me of seattle coffee houses.

    that's it.